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I am 27 years old, a mom of three and I want to lose weight. Many of us do, but we do not know how to start. I have a weakness for delishious food but I do not pig out, often. I have to admit I have days I ate more than I should. I must be honest with myself.

 My biggest problem though is not my eating habits, its my level of activity. I work from home making virtual clothing, buildings, making web sites, doing affiliate work, and other assorted busy work. Plus I go to college online. In all it’s way to much sitting down!

I am up and about off and on all day chasing my three kids and playing with them, but I still sit, a lot. Right now it’s worse because it is winter and its cold. Plus in this economy money is so tight!

But I have a plan and I have good tools. So if you are like me, or you have been here, I hope to encourage you. Or if you’d like you can encourage me. I am NOT the most diciplined person on the planet.

Hot french fries, chocolate.. who can resist now and then?

My first tool you are looking at, a live journal where anyone can see what I am doing. If I slack off, please send a comment telling me to stop being lazy, lol. I think it will help to have at least a weekly update of my progress. I am a busy mom, so posting EVERY day might be too much, but weekly is good.

The second tool is a cool visual model I found. It shows how I look now and how I want to look. Its located at: http://www.prevention.com/mvm/main.html

So I customised myself, its rather accurate, here I am..

Weight Loss Goals

My third tool is my handy calorie tracker. There are a BUNCH on the internet but I really like the free one at caloriebalancediet.com . You can even add custom foods and snacks you eat often. One thing I do not like is that things like eggs which have good cholestorol make the tracker think you just went nuts with cholestorol. Plus you might want to tweak the setting to your specific needs if you use it, we are not photo copies, we have needs that differ per person!

My fourth tool is Tony Hortons 10 Min Trainer Deluxe. I got it off E-Bay much cheaper than you could get directly from the store so I am good with that. It should arrive by the end of the week depending on the seller.

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Let’s hope the sappy crying infomercial people are not in fact actors of academy award calibur. I got this to slim down without bulking up. I don’t want to win awards for muscules, I just want soft slender but firm curves. And it’s not a skinny blonde telling me to suck in my tummy.

Fifth is my DDR, dance dance revoloution game. Mainly because its so much fun to do. Im not sure it really contributes a lot, but it gets me up and I love to dance and sing.

I also plan to get a YMCA membership so I can swim within a month or two. I love thier steam room it feels soo nice. Plus they have great ab and thigh machines, my two biggest problem areas. 

So thats the plan. Stay tuned!

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Some of us remember the series of beeps and the nails on chalk board screech of our dial-up modems connecting to the internet. Most of us today have a constant always up connection of some kind to the internet. The need for both speed and stability has been rising since the very launch of the internet. There is an entire net culture now that sets frequent users apart from casual users.

We connect to the internet to work, to socialize, to share our very lives with friends and family who are distant from us. We meet amazing people from places we never might have otherwise visited. Or perhaps even if we have been there and walked right past them, we suddenly find them on the internet.

I have always enjoyed how easy it is to get to know someone for their personality first without seeing a face or hearing their voice. As human beings we tend to judge one another based on appearance. Who seems more intelligent on first glance? The polished lady in the business suit or the old frumpy janitor woman in the basement off the office? The lady might be your first choice, but she may have aquired her position based on looks and not really have a clue how to efficiently run the business. While the janitor might be a retired school teacher, who taught on a college level for many years and only took the janitor position part time to keep her arthritis at bay.

You just never know a person until you get to know their personality completely. On that note there is a strange connection that happens on the internet. When  you start to talk with a new friend nearly every day on the internet you get to know their personality. Even if they do not share all of their personal life you just start to know things about how they feel, and if they are upset or not.

What I am not sure about personally is why you start to feel these things about them, and they do the same thing for you if they realise it or not. There are many depths to this type of connection that I find rather frightening in that the person becomes as dear to you as your own best friend next door.

Sometimes I wonder if there is a reason you meet certain people and connect with them. Why in a chat room or game full of people do you specifically start to get to know a person. Its not about only the girl meets boy connection, but about the friend meets friend connection as well. Why do certain people become the best of friends and others who are in the same place and doing similar things, only remain someone you saw before? It is perplexing..

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I feel so lost sometimes when I look out the window at the world that seems to be going by without me. It is not that I can’t walk outside, I often do, its a more of a mental feeling.

I feel trapped by the things that used to give me joy, because most of those things have changed. My three children are a handful but nothing is really wrong there other than being tired having to chase them. So I suspect its both the almost non existant money problem and the fact my husbands been disabled and not working for so long.

He has changed.. my husband was a happy, laughing, fun guy. We used to talk and smile all the time. He is very sick.. I know he can not help it. I feel terrible for him having to deal with it every day.  I do my best to make him happy.

His attitude about life is different.. he is obsessed with knowing where I am and what I am doing at all times. If I laugh at something he demands to know whats funny. If I am upset about something he barrages me with why until I want to tell him to back off. He wants me to go to him to comfort him for every small thing, and he complains about almost everything people do.

To be fair he does not constantly complain at me, he helps me with the kids and he does try to help out with the chores around the house. The good is there, but it is not close to the joyful man who used to be there.

All this is making me feel like my prayers are to weak to be heard. I do not feel lucky at all. It does not help that I can not just go spend time on myself for things like manicures and hair cuts. Im far to busy, and the money is needed for other things. I am a mother, a wife, and a caregiver, but my ‘self’ seems to be lost right now.

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