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It has been a learning process and it has been difficult at times but I am proud to say it is day 5 of the accelerated 10 min trainer program. I have kept up with the 3 stack a day plan, except the yoga day.

Yesterday and today I¬† did 1 of the workouts in the morning. I think I feel better clarity when I exercise first thing in the morning. It’s too early to show any major changes but I certainly feel the effects.

The true challenge is in the jeans test. Are they still tight.. or do they slip on easy? I am waiting until friday to try on a pair I wore last fall again. They fit just right then but have since gotten tight over the holiday season.

The winter months are harsh on the body. Summer time allows me to get out and walk and take my kids to the park. But since late November I have not gotten out very much and that plus the holiday season took it’s toll. But it was super cute this morning to see my 2 year old daughter trying to work out like mommy does. I was jogging circles with her and she was giggling up a storm.

Anyways I think 10 min trainer is helping a lot so I am happy. I also am trying to watch my portions, although I am not drastically cutting calories, just trying to eat less junk. I got a tip from the John Tesh radio show about using smaller dinner plates to trick your mind into thinking you ate more. I was skeptical but it works!

Also I am not a huge fan of drinking water all the time so my soloution is 2 things.. home-made green tea with splenda sweetener, and the south beach diet protein waters to replace sodas. Well mostly… I crave a Diet Dr Pepper now and then so I indulge. But it is down to once every other day or less.

More comming soon! Actually less.. weight.. more.. me. ūüôā

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I am 27 years old, a mom of three and I want to lose weight. Many of us do, but we do not know how to start. I have a weakness for delishious food but I do not pig out, often. I have to admit I have days I ate more than I should. I must be honest with myself.

¬†My biggest problem though is not my eating habits, its my level of activity. I work from home making virtual clothing, buildings, making web sites, doing affiliate work, and other assorted busy work. Plus I go to college online. In all it’s way to much sitting down!

I am up and about off and on all day chasing my three kids and playing with them, but I still sit, a lot. Right now it’s worse because it is winter and its cold. Plus in this economy money is so tight!

But I have¬†a plan and I have good tools. So if you are like me, or you have been here, I hope to encourage you. Or if you’d like you can encourage me. I am NOT the most diciplined person on the planet.

Hot french fries, chocolate.. who can resist now and then?

My first tool you are looking at, a live journal where anyone can see what I am doing. If I slack off, please send a comment telling me to stop being lazy, lol. I think it will help to have at least a weekly update of my progress. I am a busy mom, so posting EVERY day might be too much, but weekly is good.

The second tool is a cool visual model I found. It shows how I look now and how I want to look. Its located at: http://www.prevention.com/mvm/main.html

So I customised myself, its rather accurate, here I am..

Weight Loss Goals

My third tool is my handy calorie tracker. There are a BUNCH on the internet but I really like the free one at caloriebalancediet.com . You can even add custom foods and snacks you eat often. One thing I do not like is that things like eggs which have good cholestorol make the tracker think you just went nuts with cholestorol. Plus you might want to tweak the setting to your specific needs if you use it, we are not photo copies, we have needs that differ per person!

My fourth tool is Tony Hortons 10 Min Trainer Deluxe. I got it off E-Bay much cheaper than you could get directly from the store so I am good with that. It should arrive by the end of the week depending on the seller.

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Let’s hope the sappy crying infomercial people are not in fact actors of academy award calibur. I got this to slim down without bulking up. I don’t want to win awards for muscules, I just want soft slender¬†but¬†firm curves. And it’s not a skinny blonde telling me to suck in my tummy.

Fifth is my DDR, dance dance revoloution game. Mainly because its so much fun to do. Im not sure it really contributes a lot, but it gets me up and I love to dance and sing.

I also plan to get a YMCA membership so I can swim within a month or two. I love thier steam room it feels soo nice. Plus they have great ab and thigh machines, my two biggest problem areas. 

So thats the plan. Stay tuned!

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Ever feel alone despite being surrounded by people. Ever have someone you care about make comments that have you wondering if it is only you who really cares? I mean sure.. they are your friend and would never wish anything bad on you but you have a feeling that you would do more for them than they would ever do for you.

And you feel them pulling away and it kills you..

Then all life seems to offer is bleak repetitiveness.. over and over the same pain in your world and with your only relief pulling away you grasp for other things to try to make you happy. Then you start to wonder if your just a silly fool for placing all your hope for simple¬†joy into one person… your dear friend who.. perhaps does not hold you as dear. Cares but…

There is a place I have come to where many of the things that used to make me happy no longer do. The only thing thats kept me sane is a friendship and I feel like I am even losing that. I want to curl up and cry and I feel so weak.. I wont curl up and cry of course… but I wish I had the luxury.

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They say music is the heartbeat of life. In my case I found myself sad this morning and decided to browse youtube for some songs that really couple with how I feel right now. Two by Linkin Park popped into my head.

Sometimes I feel like people who are full of imagination and playfulness are suffocated in this world. Everyone keeps telling me that work and college and saving money, investing, and complete focus on my kids and husband are what a good wife and woman must do. Yes, to a certain degree you have to take responsibility for your life. Kids need to get outside and play and have a great time, but they need downtime where they can play on thier own too. Work is nessesary to pay the bills, and college will get a better salary, but I dont want to trudge to work from 9-5 every day, come home, cook dinner, tuck the kids in, and go to bed and repeat.

I want fun! I want to be able to play a little. I want to create great things and write stories and hang out with my friends. I want to have fun and not be scolded every time I goof off. I still get my bills paid.. I still get my kids out and have fun.. WHAT THE HELL DO YOU PEOPLE WANT? I decided I really dont care anymore. Aside from going to college, which I am, to get a job that pays well enough that I only have to work part time, and I can keep my kids out of daycares. As well as trying to make compromises, many I don’t like, but for the sake of marriage and children. The rest of it I am tired of. I do not want to be like the world says I am “supposed” to be. I tried it, I already feel numb.

Anyways.. Here are the videos I found that really hit home right now.

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I have recently come to realise that I can get grumpy over details. I like for things to just happen and I forget that sometimes certain projects take time. I guess I have always been this way to be honest I just never paid attention.

I do know that the last thing I want to do is grouch at people who are trying to help me. As I grow daily into (hopefully) a better person I try to learn from my past failings. I need to relax and just keep steady and everything will work out God willing.

“Intellectual growth should commence at birth and cease only at death.” Albert Einstein

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I feel so lost sometimes when I look out the window at the world that seems to be going by without me. It is not that I can’t walk outside, I often do, its a more of a mental feeling.

I feel trapped by the things that used to give me joy, because most of those things have changed. My three children are a handful but nothing is really wrong there other than being tired having to chase them. So I suspect its both the almost non existant money problem and the fact my husbands been disabled and not working for so long.

He has changed.. my husband was a happy, laughing, fun guy. We used to talk and smile all the time. He is very sick.. I know he can not help it. I feel terrible for him having to deal with it every day.  I do my best to make him happy.

His attitude about life is different.. he is obsessed with knowing where I am and what I am doing at all times. If I laugh at something he demands to know whats funny. If I am upset about something he barrages me with why until I want to tell him to back off. He wants me to go to him to comfort him for every small thing, and he complains about almost everything people do.

To be fair he does not constantly complain at me, he helps me with the kids and he does try to help out with the chores around the house. The good is there, but it is not close to the joyful man who used to be there.

All this is making me feel like my prayers are to weak to be heard. I do not feel lucky at all. It does not help that I can not just go spend time on myself for things like manicures and hair cuts. Im far to busy, and the money is needed for other things. I am a mother, a wife, and a caregiver, but my ‘self’ seems to be lost right now.

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